Desperate, Medicaided and out of control.
What do you do in this situation?
Feeling so tired that you can't think straight.
Lost and lonely. Me, myself and I are the only thinkgs i have left.
I choose my own destiny.
Will this stay be worth it? Or is it really too late and in the end i have made up my mind.
Fear and paranoia equals hate and anger.
What have i been angry at my whole life?
Why did (do) live in frea of peiople finding that i ham vunerable.
I feel no guilt that i am hurting others in the end.
Wondering when i will get past that or to have someone ask why do you feel that way and that it's wrong.
Symptoms:
Dizziness, tired, lonely, medicated, headache, fear, wishy washy, no concentration, antisocial, sore, hot, cold, misunderstood, labeled, in the dark, shaky, impulsive, lack of trust, empty, nothing.
I just want to write but i can't think. Feeling like all is lost, maybe i am just lost.
Empty and desperate to find whatever it is.
I need to make myself normal again.
Do you hear these world that i am saing or do you just play them off as some sort of attention seeker.
Under the radar is my game. Felling content in the life that i have lived.
After all is said and done will i regret the choice that i have made.?
I feel lonely and lost as it is. It's almost a way of life.
Nothing is wrong but everything that i think is wrong.
I know that i will be hurting all the people that love me.
There is no guilt in this wya of thinking. No matter how close i am to you.
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