Satuday Journal

Saturday:

I still feel on that hyper high here. It's a good feeling but maybe it's because i have people coming up today. I may get a tattoo if there's time. I'm not telling the hospital just in case. I don't know if i will even have time to get it done but maybe we can get it started with the drawing and i can go up with R this week.

I got to check my email and i replied to a few. I haven't had a chance to do it really. So that was good. I had my privs bumped up from 15 mins 3x and shift to 30 mins 3x a shift. that gives me time to email and keep in touch.

I got my AM scrapbook from the mom's last night so that was cool to look through. I was losing interest in her i think because of my depression but it's coming back full force. I'm having A forward an email to her from me thanking her for bringing the IP together. I'm gonna write something today and send it tomorrow or Monday. If I'm lucky I'll hear something back.

So D and L came up today. No tattoo today because the place was closed. Bummer, but i not have gotten it because of time constraints anyways. So we went to the mall and just browsed. I got and Atreyu shirt for $6 bucks. Just what i need another shirt. Linnea brought me some new CD's to put on the Ipod. I need the laptop first so hopefully i can get that early this week. After we went to the mall they came in and chatted for a while. It really breaks up the day, since the weekend are nothing here. I say in this place that there is no time but you have so much time to kill.

I think i;m coming down from my happy high now. I've been feeling tired lately and when the girls left i tried to take a nap but i couldn't sleep. I can;t take naps anymore it seems like. I'm not sure why I'm coming down but maybe its just getting used to the new meds. I did start it weds i think it was. there are no hardcore side effects like the Remeron had but it is early.

I just hope to stay positive and stable but if i do fall here i know i will be OK.

The thoughts are starting to come back and i am feeling a bit antsy too. Maybe I'll just walk for a while and hopefully R will call too. We'll see how the nights go i didn't get much sleep last night. I think maybe 4 hours. I would sleep in tomorrow and be lazy but D is coming and i think at 2. So yeah and veg i guess.